If you look back to the beginning of my blog back then I was just playing around.
The quality of the jpegs was pretty bad, and I didn't care.
It was just for fun.
But I got into it a bit more, started to try a little harder, and thought that maybe someone would want to publish Spleenal.
This was pushed by my wife going on about money all the time. I started to think that if I showed enough people, someone would want to take a chance on it. Not the big majors (Marvel, DC, Dark horse) but one of the indie publishers.
I thought that it wouldn't mean a lot of money. Certainly not enough to quit work and do cartooning full time, but it would mean a bit of extra cash. Maybe enough to shut her up.
I'm not interested in trying to change what comes naturally from me. To try to fit with what publishers want, just to get published. But I did think that... well you know.
When I first started showing people the stuff on this blog they all came back saying stuff like "No" but a few said that they liked it, and if I ever did anything long enough to fill a comic they'd like a look.
Humm, long enough to fill a comic.
I'd thought that they could just fill something with all the little short things. Obviously not.
I could do something of length without changing what comes naturally. All it would require is to not stop the story at 3 or 6 or whatever panels.
So I did the spanky comic.
I really enjoyed doing it. It was nice to do a proper story with a bit of a twist, and I liked avoiding turning it into a morality tale.
I'd always liked those confessional, autobiographical comics the artist exposes how screwed up and pervy he is Joe Matt, Dave Cooper The problem was that my personal life and sex life wasn't enough of a mess to be entertaining, so I'd have to make some stuff up. An affair with extra spanking seemed like a good thing to go with. Spanking, as a sexual "thing" would be something I could show without being too X-rated, and it would link nicely to the "frustrated" feel I already had going on in the blog.
I liked it. You liked it too.
They didn't though.
Looking back at it. I thought I knew what was "wrong" with it.
Maybe it was a bit one note. And maybe Spanking's a bit niche.
That was no problem though. If I was going to do something else it wouldn't continue striking the same exact note.
So maybe I could do another long comic length one. And while I was doing it I could leave out the box around the panels (wasn't keen on those in the spanky comic)
So I did Un-bound and was really pleased with it. It seemed to have a real life feel about it. A lot of people thought I was making it up as I went along, which I took as a good thing, because life makes it's self up as it goes along. I had a couple of things going on in spleenals life, arthritis and his wife's need for more money. Two seemingly separate story lines. but the arthritis led to the wrong pills which led to him quitting his job which led to them offering him more money which solved the money problem.
I think writers call it convergence.
I liked it. You liked it. They didn't.
So maybe that's it. I don't have anything different to do with spleenal that will get me published. I'm not interested in changing it to fit anything.
So the question is what now? Could I go back to just doing it for fun alone (like when I started) Or is it time to stop and do something else?
Humm, I don't know...